Make Over? Make Under? Make Never?

Hi there people, it's me again! What do you guys think of this picture?Last week my cousins, namely; Jenin and Myia decided that they were going to give me a make over and guess what?This is the difference!!Is there really a difference?Tell me because seriously the only change i can clearly see is the necklace....lol....really, that is all i can see!!Anyway guys, Im just home listening to music....not doing anything of great significance!!I was told that i needed a makeover!Let me quote Jenin, "You need to accentuate your natural beauty"!I seriously do not have a problem with the way I look but I was also told that i looked like I am not being cared for.....ouch!!!!....That came from Myia by the way.Ouch, Ouch!!!
O well, that was their argument the last time when i relaxed my hair and now I need another makeover....O crap....
Whatever!This really doesnt matter to me!But they are saying I need to shave my eyebrows or pluck some out.....Dont I shave or pluck out everything else??....lol....Im kidding!!!But seriously I dont have any isssues with my brows but mybe i should get a hair cut or grow natural!These are my only two options because i hate relaxed hair and it is really getting on my nerves!!So, what do you think???Dont think just because Im asking, that your opinion means something to me because it really doesnt.....lol...
Moving on, two more weeks and then school will be closed for the easter vacation!!Yae!!!I can not wait for that!!No offence to the pupils who are in desperate need of knowledge and who yearn for it every second of everyday.....lol....Sarcasm loves me.....lol....

I HAVE GOT TO SAY ARRIVERDERCI!!! So bye for noe dudes!!!!!!!!!!

Missed Ya

Hey guys, i am sorry i have not been in touch.But I am COOL. I had a busy busy week people! School is taking up All of my time!This is a picture of a student and I at our sports that we had last week wednesday!It was a very good day actually!Students were excited, teachers were getting all riled up and i really enjoyed it! By the way, my house totally lost (St Omer- yellow)!It did not have a terrible effect on me because i was more into Walcott - red house!!Anyway, It was a very good day and it ended early so that's always good!But seriously, you should have seen the teachers, so very overly excited!I was not one of them though, i screamed a bit but I didnt take it as far as a particular teacher; Ms Martie, who insisted on running the races with her students to cheer them on....lol...that was pretty funny.Thats one of the teachers I really like at Clendon Mason, along with Ms St Ange, Ms Nelson, Ms Mathurin and a few others. I really enjoy teaching at this school, surprisingly!!!
The teachers are fun, dedicated and caring, and they put their lives in danger everytime they come to a school where there is no fencing and vagrants and crazies come into the school's yard to beg for money or to fight with a particular student.Yesterday, there was an incident at the school, in which past students simply walked onto the school's compound with cutlasses to fight with a student who was just transferred.Its amazing how those teachers have been exposed to so much danger and yet they make it their duties to come to school everyday. They should definitely be applauded for that and seriously, the school is in dire need of fencing because persons even come on the compound to smoke and have sexual intercourse!This is not a proper environment for working or for learning! Fix the problem because that is the least the teachers who have been there for years deserve!!
O yeah, i had a good day today! I actually went to a district crusade in Mon repos!Pastor Biscette preached and I was seriously moved! It was an incredible sermon, i was nearly pulled to the altar to reconsecrate my life to God!But then, i let the feeling pass i suppose!Im sorry i did though!Church was incredible!!Thank you Pastor Biscette!!
Thank you for listening guys!! Its always a pleasure talking to you!!
Tomorrow?If i dont get to occupied!!!
Later dudes!!!

The Lities

Hi there guys!I would like to introduce you to the Lities!These are the greatest Literature students that A Level ever came into contact with(Nelsha is missing though).We were called "The Lities" at A Level because we had our own little literature world!We used to insult other students so eloquently, with Shakesspeare and so on.....lol....We used to give jokes and surprisingly enough we were the only ones who got the gist of our jokes.....lol...Allow me to introduce them, starting from the left side, we have Kendy Jean.The voice of reason in our group.Always saying we shouldnt do this or that and she always felt bad for somebody whom we probably slaughtered with our tongues! Of course, you know me!I have always been crazy and quite mean when it comes to some people(i tell them what i think, thats all)Anyway, next to me, on your right, would be Lovely St Aime!She is a wonderful person, really intelligent and the great thing about her is that she doesnt care what anybody thinks so she would say exactly what she thought!A model Litie, I would say....lol...Next to Lovely, is Kaiser Taylor, very intelligent, a wonderful friend with a deadly tongue!When Kaiser tells you what she thinks of you, make sure that you are in a cullet proof vessel because she will shoot you and cut you up like you're nothing....lol....I always liked that about her!!Now Nelsha is not in the pic but I can not talk about the Lities and leave her out!Thats just not right and she would probably kill me!Now Nelsha Roseman, completed our group and our wonderful personalities!She is very intelligent and nice to only the people she likes!Everybody is afraid of Nelsha, and rightly so because she could be sooooo mean!In the most eloquent and Litie way, she would explain exactly what she thought of you and she would always finish up her statemants with an oh so subtle threat...."If i had my gun today"....or....."i would really like to see you dead"....love that and love her....Anyway, we had a motto that we went by in our Group, which was "a litie by a litie valiantly vanquished" ....we were so nuts and I miss that!!O well actually, there were a few set of students who hated our guts at A Level!They took everything we said, personally!Their names were Vernicia Badal and her loyal worshippers, Ksha and Antonia!Those girls just hated us and for some reason we enjoyed every minute of their hatred!Everything that they said we made more fun of them to get them angrier....lol....They even threatened to fight us after exams but that didnt happen.....But we had fun with our enemies!In fact, at some point our voice of reason was feeling sorry for them and so she thought we should lessen our mean attitude and words towards them!....I tried, I called them on the streets and at school and I said hello everytime I saw them!It infuriated them and I loved every moment!!....lol...They tried dropping remarks at us but you should know that nobody can beat the Lities!!!Men, we had fun!!!At school, in our Sociology classes we used to get them more upset because everytime one of us answered a question, they got pissed off!But what they failed to realise is that they were basically idiots, well Antonia and Ksha, to be more specific....lol...If you are reading this guys, I do not know about now but at A Level, you were total idiots!The Lities knew their work so we could kid around!You did not anything but you thought we acted superior, so all throughout Al evel, instead of studying, you concentrated on us!!Oh well, too bad!I hope you are wiser now.....lol...

Anyway guys, i have got to go!Remember though, "A litie by a Litie, valiantly vanquished!"

Later Lities!!!!

My Madness

Hi there guys, it's me again! I have been a bit busy because of work and everything else, so i have not had much time to say hello!Anyway, I am here now!I had a good day today, being my Sabbath and everything!I actually went to the beach for the morning part of church to concentrate on the beauty of nature and all that jazz! A.Y was lovely, we had a discussion on the church and culture with our AY leader, Elder Matthew Kisna!It was a good discussion!!
Anyway, I would like you to meet my closest and dearest friend in the world, this would be Miss Elpha Neptune!She is a lovely person inside and out!She has tolerated a great deal from me and she can read me like a book because there is nothing about me that she does not know!She is intelligent, kind and loving and anyone of you would be very lucky to make her acquaintance!I consider myself very lucky!!Anyway, Elpha always liked when i wrote poems!She especially liked my love poems because they expressed my real feelings and they were not dark!However, most of my poems are a bit dark for some unknown reason!I guess, I might actually be crazy.....lol....No, i dont think so!!But seriously, judge for yourself!Your verdict will not affect me, I assure you!!This one I wrote sometime late last year!I think, in November(Elpha has not read any of my poems from since October because she is not here)!I hope you will enjoy this one.....lol....Well, actually I know you will not!!!Its a bit nuts!!Oh well, I warned you a long time ago....lol....I will talk to you guys later and Seriously guys, isnt this gal pretty?....I think she's hottt.....lol.....

My Sanity



My soul darkens,
My heart pains,
My eyes have become wild,
My thoughts: have lost control of my actions!
I question life!
I dread each day!
I make myself ill,
Because, physical pain is more logical,
Than emotional agony.

People question my sanity?
I question my sanity!
If I stay here any longer,
I will go mad!
If I stay here any longer,
I will jump off this cliff!
Because there, I will find silence.
There, I will find tranquility.
There, you shall not be.
In death, you shall not be.

Am I sane?Once upon a time,
I jumped off that same cliff,
And I found love…
I found life…

But love…
Love has suddenly neglected me,
Leaving me behind,
Surrounded with memories,
Surrounded with moments!
I long for aloneness,
Peace,
A violent end!

Life…
Life has cheated me out of happiness,
Life has imprisoned me in a dungeon;
Filled with memories,
Desires, real love,
Feigned love,
Infatuation…
Feelings of neglect,
And loneliness!
I though, am in a state of confusion,
As, all my emotions,
Have the same end result:
Pain! Pain! Pain!

I scream,
But no one hears me!
Or they hear,
But do not listen!
They continue to question my sanity!
They continue…

But I need some form of escape!
I need to escape,
These horrifying surroundings!
Things are too familiar;
I need to escape,
But the only security I can muster,
Is death!

Give me a task to help me forget!
Burn my memories,
And bury the ashes…
I need renewal!
I need to gain control of my sanity.
I need to live in a state of forgetfulness,
Or die,
So that my memories,
Will no longer haunt me,
I simply need…
I need an escape!
I need to escape this pea sized life,
Where thoughts of you flood my existence,
And push me so close,
To the edge of insanity,
That I am unsure as to where I stand!

People question my sanity!
I question my sanity!
Am I insane enough to live a life,
Filled with memories,
That you had etched on my brain?
My heart,
And every functioning organ inside me?
Or am I sane enough,
To die?
Forever escaping your torturous hold,
Upon me,
Upon my living life?

Persons question my sanity?
I question my sanity!



NB: I told you it was crazy!!!.....lol....That's who I am!!!Dont worry though, Im not suicidal or anything!I was a bit sad last year!!Still a bit sad but much better now!!So dont worry and please, dont call 911!You are just wasting your time.....I have been through it.....Im kidding....lol!!!
Later Guys!!!

My Locks

Hi there guys!Do you like this picture?This was actually my 18th birthday, which was a Saturday, so I went to Church!It was a totally awesome Sabbath!After church, I had a birthday lunch with some of my church friends and I got great birthday gifts!I had a good time!Jenin and her husband, Matthew hosted the lunch it was cool!You see, Jenin is not all bad....lol....she just messed me up....that's all.....lol...Anyway, around that time, I had my natural hair!I was going to A level and I insisted that i needed to be in touch with my African side!The only way I knew how to do that was to keep my hair natural and uncombeb until it started turning into "locks"!I loved it, I thought it was hot!I used to wash my hair often but never had to comb it!I thought it was cool.....my family members thought i was nasty!!.....lol...Hey, it was awesome, I did not have to think about hair or take care of it or anything!The only ones who approved of my hair was Myia, well cause she thought it looked cool and my other "dreadlocks cousins"!They would be, Donny, Davy, Dwayne and Lance Camille!But the majority won and I relaxed my hair!Now, I am totally regretting this!!I miss my dreads man!!I dont think i looked too bad!!There is not a significant difference, now and then is there??Well, i dont see it!!!

Catch you in a few minutes!!Bye!!

My "small" family

Hey guys!It's me again!This is just a small portion of my family members (very small)!These are my cousins ( Desma Flavius and her absolutely gorgeous daughter, Anya, Julia Popo next to her, Christa Popo(the last of the Popo sisters), next to her, laughing her head off is Sorisha Popo, behind her (me of course), next to me, my mad cousin and the eldest of the Popo sisters, Norsika and next to Norsika is Joycelyn Willie)!Just a few members guys!This picture was taken on the final day of a Camp that our church had last year in Choiseul!It was a whole lot of fun!Actually, we did not even want to leave on the final day because we were having such a ball!Although, we had a card board bathroom for the girls that was ruined by rain and the guys were bathing in the naturalness of the environment....lol...It was fun!We loved every second of it! We should totally have another camp like the one we had last year!!

Anyway guys, I have to go but we will converse a little later today Im sure! Ciao!!

Lookalikes

Hi there guys!I am back!Church was awesome, we had another discussion!This one was on St John 15!It was done by Elder Tyron James!It was pretty cool!Get a Bible and read it anytime ok???Its a good chapter!Anyway, I know what you're thinking, I am on the computer on a Saturday night and so, I do not have much of a life!Well.....You would be right.....lol....But it's okay, Im enjoying every second of it....lol....Anyway, Id like you guys to meet my Mom!She is a wonderful person and she has been a great constant in my life, teaching me the difference between right and wrong!Showing me that life is worth living every second to the fullest!She is a great lady and I am so glad that I have been sooo blessed that she has been my mother!I thank God for her each day and Im proud to have her as my own!I love you Mom!

Anyway, guys I have got to go!So LATER!!!

Hell Fire

Hey guys, its me again! Just saying hola! I went to church today, if I did not tell you, I am a Seventh Day Adventist christian!I had a wonderful day at church!We had a day of teaching today and we were basically discussing the coming of Christ, hell fire and so on! I understood a great deal from our young elder, Bruno Flerin!What he was saying is that, most christians believe that when Jesus comes the wicked people will be sent to hell and they will be burnt for an eternity!But he explained it with the help of scripture!He suggested that, what the bible says is that the wicked will be destroyed with an eternal fire and they will be burned till they become ash!Now this eternal fire is not a fire that will keep burning forever and ever!The fire is eternal because it is that of Christ, it is a Christ burning fire but it does not suggest that the fire will keep on burning and the wicked will continue burning and burning!If that were the case, then all the wicked people in the world are still burning now even though, their existence on this earth was many decades ago!Now, if this is so, doesn't this suggest that the wicked have eternal life?No matter what, if they are still burning in hell's fire and they are not dying, then obviously, they have eternal life!Now, this is very incorrect, if we study our bible carefully, we will recognize that the Bible suggests that when God comes the second time, then shall the wicked be destroyed by this eternal fire that will cause them to turn to ashes!Others have believed, that when we die, we automatically go to Heaven but the Bible does not suggest this either!The bible suggests in Ecclesiastes, Matthew and many other books that when we die, we become dust and the breath that he had given us, goes back up to Heaven!But we remain dead or in this state of sleep until His second coming!Then, the bible suggests thet, "the dead in Christ shall rise first, and they will be caught up to meet Him in the air"So it is incorrect to believe that when we die, we automatically go up to Heaven!If that were the case, then what would be the purpose of the second coming?
Anyway, I just wanted to inform you as to what I learned today!It was a good day!I have had a good lunch and I just had a piece of cheesecake that Lydia Atkins made for Jenin's husband, Matthew! Im sure you remember Jenin....you know, the cause of all my problems....lol...Anyway, the individual in the pic is her Mom!My aunt and my other parent, a fabulous woman indeed!Kind, generous and loving!

Bye y'all!!Im going to get ready to go back to church!!Ciao!!

Introduction

Hi there, i figured i should tell you a little bit about myself, since this is my first page!Well, lets see......ummmm!First of all, you should know that I am the crazy looking individual in the picture! The person behind me is my cousin and though she may not look crazy, we all know that looks can be decieving!!Anyway, my name is Malica but most people call me Merlie!Most people also think that Im crazy (not in a psychotic way) but more of a funny, friendly, sorta nutty way!But i dont mind, I like being labelled nutty, for some reason!!Anyway, i enjoy reading good literature; poetry, autobiographies, historical books and/or plays and sociology!I enjoy writing poetry very much because somehow i always feel good after writing any type of poetry! Ummm....I have many favourite books that I read over and over! I just happened to have done them at A Level (most of them)...Wide Sargasso Sea by Jean Rhys, Macbeth by William Shakepeare, The Glass Menagerie by Tennessee Williams, Omeros by Derek Walcott and so on! I enjoy listening to good music!Some of my friends say that the music I listen to is depressing but I enjoy them very much!My favourite artists are Jewel, Sarah Mclachlan, India Arie, Alanis Morissette, Cher, Reba Mcintire etc! Love listening to those singers! I also like listening to Rod Stewart, Gladys Knight and the Pips, Marvin Gaye, Barry White, Frank Sinatra, Nat King Cole, Bette Midler, Diana Ross and the Supremes etc. I enjoy going to the beach with my family and friends, thats always fun because I love the water! I stay in it for hours upon hours just enjoying the water and thinking about any and everything!!I like giving jokes and making fun of things!I can be very sarcastic and a total pain!Everyone who knows me, knows that!Although I can be totally mean, Im not a mean person, I just enjoy kidding around!
What else about me??...Well, I have a pretty large family, although I am my Mom's only child!I have an infinite number of first cousins and many many many other relatives! I love them all! They are all different in their own unique way and I wouldnt change, not one of them!They all have their issues and if they didnt have them, I dont think I would love them as much!I am close to most of my cousins!I have a cousin who is exactly my age!We were born in the same month! His name is Denis Brad, we have been close friends from the day we were born and we have never stopped!He is a very intelligent young man, and everyone who knows him, knows that he is a kind hearted, selfless person!!I am also very close with two other cousins of mine who also happen to be my older sisters!The one in the pic, is the eldest one, Jenin!She is a lovely individual!She likes joking around and making fun of me!She is very intelligent and a fun person to be around!I have admired her intelligence and wit for as long as i can remember and I am very proud of her for all of what she has accomplished in her life!The younger one, Myia, is crazier than I am in a wonderfully, refreshing way!She enjoys taking risks and having fun!She is also a very dependable and trustworthy friend!So you see, all of my family members are wonderful and if i were to take the time to describe each of their wonderful qualities, I would never end!By the way, once you meet Jenin, you will have all the answers as to why I am the way I am....lol....
Anyway. what else?...I did English Literature and Sociology at Alevel and I did well because it is always good to do somethings that you love and I loved those subjects!I now teach at a secondary school, in Dennery, called the Clendon Mason Memorial Secondary School!Its a pretty cool, school!Well....at least the teachers are nice.....lol....I teach english to form ones, twos and threes!If you ask me hows it going, I will punch your lights out!....There is a moment after you get punched in the stomach, where you find it impossible to breathe because of the severe pain in the abdomen( that's how much fun Im having, teaching)....lol....I love it!!....lol...Some people, the more they feel pain, the more they yearn for it!!Anyway, what else can I tell you?This is my basic intimate portrait!I have had people who severely impacted my life and caused me to want to be a better person(note the word "want"....lol....)Persons other than my family members, I mean!!Let's see, at Secondary School: Wendy Monrose and Telmarline Paul Louis, they have continued being great guides in my life!Ensuring that I always think things through and I always do my best in everything that I do!(Wendy is continuously showing me, who's boss and obviously, it's not me......lol....she is awesome and I admire her a great deal)
Let's see, at A level, I still had those two constants but i was greatly impacted by two great teachers: Lindy Eristhee, who had the patience of an unearthly being!I had the most fun in her classes because i loved the subject and I always wanted to do my best at it! Hugh Maitre, believe it or not, taught me that it doesnt matter who likes you, it just matters that you like yourself!He also taught me to be a better English student!! The Literature Crew: the Lities, taught me true friendship, loyalty, and how to make a total ass of yourself and still be brilliant!!(I wonder what happened to our arched enemies: a set of students who despised us and to their horror, we enjoyed every second of it.....lol....)It's not arrogance, We were the best Literature students in the history of that school and the greatest of friends(Lovely St Amie, Nelsha Roseman, Kendy Jean, Kaiser Taylor and of course, Me....lol...)!!Gosh, I miss those guys!!
What else do i have to say?Oh right!!I talk alot wich is why this blog is soooo long.....lol....Oh i almost forgot to say hello to my closest and dearest friend!Someone who knows me better than I know myself and she loves me nonetheless(not out of obligation but out of friendship), that would be Elpha Neptune!That's a heck of a friend!!!She has taught me a great deal!!

This is basically me, in a nut shell: Crazy, crazy and oh yeah, Crazy!!!